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Breaking by Sutara, literature

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Breaking

Am I losing my grip On all the things in my life Or is it I cant handle it anymore All the anger and sadness That has became my reality I crave for happiness But the harder I try for it The harder it becomes To find I feel like I'm slipping I'm falling never to hit the ground My mind is spinning My heart is reeling My soul is dying Misery it seems is forever mine I cant purge the pain I feel It is in me smouldering Burning hot but slow The hole I am in is deep and endless I seem to be forever trying to claw my way out But... I keep slipping and dropping But I never have hit the bottom Yet... I am frightened of when I d

Little Johnny by Sutara, literature

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Little Johnny

Little Johnny grab your gun Get in line to die Your goverment wants you You know you cant deny So leave your family All your friends and loved ones behind To go fight for some oil across the far seas To fight in a land where people hate you They want to kill you cant you see? We are not wanted there why cant we leave? As we ponder this yet another Johnny dies A mortor round in the chest Dog tags are the only thing left The family gets a flag in place of thier boy As another one gets ready to go take his place To die for what reason? Because some man with money and power Says its for our country But its only for him and his

Walking away by Sutara, literature

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Walking away

If I was to think how would it be? Would I smile at the thought of you and me? Or would I sigh and cry about how things used to be Thinking of the past when your love for me Was without clauses and mystery And why do I still love you when you have obviously turned your back on me Will I walk away under hazy skys of grey maybe to return to you on some fair summers day? Maybe I will keep walking with my head held high Holding the tears back from my eyes Knowing what we had is gone There is no getting back to good I have tried everything... But tell me this... If you had to do it all over again would you of? Would you go through t

Do you? by Sutara, literature

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Do you?

Gently the winds of love play on my heart Blowing gently swaying is there nothing I can do Try as I might I cant turn back the time When things was perfect and right You haunt my dreams both day and night I love you so much that is true I burn and yearn for you With a desire so hot not even the coldest water can quench the fire But what can I do when it seems I dont really have you Does your heart and soul feel the same? Or is this some wicked game To break me down my will,my resolution Just so I can be hurt and wounded again As I have so many times before you I may seem strong but my feelings are soft So tender easily damaged

Daddy... by Sutara, literature

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Daddy...

Daddy can you hear me? I try to talk to you I try to cry to you But my words and tears are not heard For they falls on deaf drunken ears Daddy can you see me? Standing here before you I am your daughter Stop turning away,pushing me away Why cant you see me for who I am? Daddy can you understand me? What have I done so wrong to you? I did everything you asked But yet everything I do seems wrong Daddy why cant you love me? It is all I ever wanted from you Your understanding your love Your guidence,maybe a hug But I have recieved nothing... "Fuck you Daddy go back from the hate you came from".

My little black box by Sutara, literature

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My little black box

Sitting in my little black box No noises no voices Quiet as a mouse I huddle in a corner Wishing to be let out Just me myself and I In my lttle black box Wondering in my little black box Thinking if I yelled if someone would let me out But yet Im trapped alone In the dark with no comforts to call my own I could try to jump Try to climb out But the walls are smooth in my little black box Suffacating in my little black box Noone to love no friends about I weep in my corner No escape not a freindly face For all my dreams was lost My soul my will to live is gone As I bitterly rot in my little black box.....

Would you? by Sutara, literature

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Would you?

If I said I want you,Would you say the same? Would you turn away from me Or would you stay and let me take you To the land of everlasting fantasy Where dreams do come true We can make it happen On a bed of soft red silk and satin Or maybe in a field on crushed soft flowing grass The sun shining down a bottle of wine near by Just us letting go So sinfully nice How about in a middle of a storm Lighting crashing all around Rain coming down hard as the wind blows Masking all other sounds So wet the rain so cold Covering and cooling our feverant bodies As we consume each others souls Look into my eyes you can see it all there I

I remember you.... by Sutara, literature

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I remember you....

I remember you..... Your smile so bright... Your mood uplifting.. Your spirit high.. Your eyes had a shine.. Your words so kind.. Your laugh was contagious.. Your mind sharp and prime... I will never forget you.. How you always could say the right things.. How one hug from you could brighten my day.. How you could make me smile just by the things you would say... How you helped me become who I am proud to walk my own way..| How you told me no matter how bad things get to keep my smile on my face... How you was there for me when I needed someone to help me chase the gray away.. I miss you... Sometimes when I'm feeling lost I wa

If.. by Sutara, literature

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If..

I have stood on the tallest mountain My eyes wide as I look down in to unknown I have screamed to the gods. Asking why my life is so torn The only answer I get is the wind hitting my face blinding my eyes Making me wonder just why I have fallen from grace Its not as if I haven't tried I have scraped and crawled, I have fought against the trails and tribulations of life Only to be denied happiness and peace that one deserves for the mind I feel like jumping off the cliff to see if I could fly To soar and be free to get away from everything But I feel as if I would fall to the ground and into a hole Just to be buried with lost dreams

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Lost to me by Sutara, literature

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Lost to me

Once upon a time when I looked into your eyes I seen the truth, The love, It was all there like words on paper, Making my heart become warm and alive. Within you I felt as if I could confide, All my dreams,thoughts,Everything that I usually hide, When we touched it was more than our bodies but our souls They would dance and breathe as one, The flames of passion climbing higher burning in our hearts, As you whispered words in my ear of your love for me, I believed them all But Oh how time changes for now my soul only questions, If all you said was true... I lay awake at night feeling alone and empty, Wondering just what you are

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Throughout the eyes by emeraldofshadow, literature

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Throughout the eyes

As I walk through this tunnel of roses and cherry blossoms I whisper the truth for only me to hear reminding myself of the oath I took Father, is my pride based on nothing? Mother, did I bleed in vain? Give me guidance, give me confidence, and give me sight If this is my home, why does it feel so empty? Why do the days seem so short but every minute of my life seems to last an eternity? I am sorrow, I am courage, I am fear and overjoyed I have been marked by a thousand needles and twenty knives My body being a floating leaf guided by the winds of my thoughts The whirlwind that now rages and makes this devil tree leaf slash everyw

Village Reunion by emeraldofshadow, literature

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Village Reunion

As Raoren slept and got to a point were it became dreamless sleep he felt someone kiss him. First in the cheek, then the forehead....then it became direct. When he felt the first kiss to his lips he opened his eyes. The first thing he saw was Rythia.--"Welcome back!"--she said in an extremely cheery voice. Raoren was in total shock. Ever since he got to the village she was the only one who had given him affection, and she didn't cease to amaze him.--"I--I'm glad to see you too Rythia."--in turn said Raoren, with a face of surprise absolutely no one had gotten from him, and he was even blushing. He got up and for a while stood face to face wit

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Lightwaves of Life by Sutara, visual art

Lightwaves of Life

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About Sutara

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Artist // Literature

United States
Deviant for 20 years
She / Her

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Current Residence: East Peoria Illinois
Favourite genre of music: All types Im a devote muisc fan
Favourite photographer: anyone that does'nt try to take a pic of me x.X
Favourite style of art: abstract
Operating System: windows
MP3 player of choice: Sony
Skin of choice: Well I'm rather partial to one I wear lol^.^
Favourite cartoon character: Faye from Cowboy Bebop plus many many others
Personal Quote: "Life is a joke take it as such"

Favourite Visual Artist

Frazzeta,Worhal,Renior

Favourite Movies

Excaliber,Pink Floyd the wall,Heavy Metal(The orignal mind you)Braveheart,Goodfellas,plus more....

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

If I name all of them we will be here all day,Now you dont want that do you?

Favourite Writers

Edgar Allen Poe

Favourite Games

GEMSTONE!!Final Fantasy Online,Strip Poker o.0

Favourite Gaming Platform

MY Pc... playstation2

Tools of the Trade

Pen and paper and dont forget the imagination

Other Interests

Music,GFX,Drawing,Poetry,Rpgs,Medeival History,My Boyfriend ,My bass guitar

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Sutara

Jan 14, 2007

Being lazy

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Yeah thats right, The reason I havent updated is been because I have been being lazy.

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Sutara

Jun 3, 2005

Eh?

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Oh wow I won a subscription its only for 7 days but hey I actually won something! For once! yay! *keels over from mass heart attack* But anyway tis pretty cool:nod:

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Sutara

May 30, 2005

Blah

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"My mind is racing,The thoughts are chasing" "Father time is winding on my soul" "Damed if I dont,Damned if I do" "I keeping coming back to put my feelings on display... "For all to see,To feel,,To become wraped up in my dreams..." Aye yes it is true I am back with some new stuff nothing real fancy though I will put somemore of my twisted emotional thoughts up soon till then...Peace

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Syferus

May 25, 2005

Red! Back in your box. o.O.
XP.

Anywho...just dropped by and thought I'd spam this up with a pointless message. ^_^''.

Sutara

May 30, 2005

What the hell? I have hardly been on here of late and this is the shit I get?> .< grrrr....

Well anyway I am back so hello and fuck you all (lol just joking but yeah...)

core4skitz

Jan 13, 2005

Hey girl! been forever since we got to chat! Hope life's treatin ya good ^_^

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core4skitz

Jan 14, 2005

nevermind... apparently you're mad at me for no good reason....

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Torari

Sep 14, 2004

thx for watching me, nee~ X3

Anytime^^

Hey...nice stuff, good emotion, keep it up my friend!
God Bless